Bismillah بِسْمِ اللهِ الرَّحْمٰنِ الرَّحِيْمِ
I love my life, but sometimes I can’t help but feel like I’m on a hamster wheel—doing the same thing every single day without much change, inspiration, or growth. I love what I do. I’m a teacher, a great mother, and a good friend, but deep down, there’s this nagging feeling that something is missing.
Why is this?
And honestly, I don’t even know where to begin dissecting my life to figure out the problem. Have I been distant from the Quran lately? Maybe. Have I been so distracted by work that I don’t have time to listen to Islamic lectures and grow my knowledge anymore? Maybe.
The problem is, I don’t want to pinpoint a problem and dive deep into solutions. My answers are vague and cloudy. And that doesn’t help anyone. To truly solve a problem, you must face it head-on and not neglect the details when they come blaring at you.
Of course, it’s uncomfortable. Acknowledging what you’re lacking, what you’re not doing enough of, it all hurts our egos. It forces us to see that we are imperfect beings, with flaws and mistakes. But if you are truly sincere about being a better slave of Allah, a better Muslimah, and better pleasing Allah, then there is nothing wrong with looking into your shortcomings and striving to improve yourself.
This is a reminder for me first and foremost.
At the beginning of the year, I set three major goals. Big goals. Goals that, if I accomplish them, will change my life. Goals that I had to be clear of in order to have a focused direction for my pursuit and then only could I plan the steps to achieve them. Also, these aren’t just random goals. They are my roadmap to growth, purpose, and fulfillment that I truly want for myself.
But achieving them requires action, commitment, and faith in Allah’s plan.
So, here’s my message to you:
If you feel stuck, lost, or unsure where to start, don’t just brush it off. Dig deeper. Set your 3 major goals and find out what’s missing. And take real, tangible steps toward change.
Because life is too short to stay stuck in the same place. May Allah guide us, strengthen us, and bless our efforts. Ameen.
Personal Update: Struggles with Weaning Maryam
One of my biggest struggles right now is weaning Maryam off breastfeeding. She’s already 2 years old, and I just can’t do it anymore.
It’s exhausting. It feels suffocating.
She constantly wants to breastfeed, and I can’t help but feel irritated. I don’t want to feel this way toward my daughter, but I also need space.
Plus, my classes are starting next week, and I can’t teach while having a 2-year-old clinging to me.
The Solution? Weaning. And Soap.
Yes, soap. It’s time.
I know it won’t be easy, but this is necessary for both of us to move forward.
Why This Matters
The Quran says,
“Mothers may breastfeed their children two complete years for whoever wishes to complete the nursing [period].” (Surah Al-Baqarah 2:233)
The two-year mark is a natural transition. It’s a new chapter for both Maryam and me, and I need to embrace it with patience and love.
Till next time, assalamualaikum!
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